Now that my daughter Jynette has moved into her new apartment and the space her bed took up in my studio is now empty I can focus on finishing up the redo. I moved my computer stuff into my studio today and finished installing Lydia's curriculum on my laptop. My desktop decided to exit this life and now I have to wait to get the data off the hard drive, Thank God for laptops!!
Back to the redo...I am in the process of placing shelving where it's going for now and situating my desk and tables where they might be most efficient. I want Lydia to do her schoolwork in here away from all outward distractions and also be where I'm going to spend most of my day-if she has any questions. It will be easier for me to grab my emails at intervals from here as well.
I am sooooooo loving this "studio of my own" thing! It really reminds me of having my own bedroom as a kid! Sure my sisters had to sleep with me every night-they were terribly afraid of the dark in our spooky, old 9-room house...but during the day it was my own room and I didn't have to share with anyone. My Mom painted it two-tone pink...light on the top and the wainscot was a hotter pink. Then she got some far-out flower-power humungo pink flowers that stuck on the wall and man alive was my room the most neato thing going! Granted it was in the upstairs kitchen and I had a big ole' kitchen sink in my room, but I didn't care! It was mine (and anyway the sink proved useful when I had to change my fishtank or when we needed to dump hot toddies Mommy made for us when we were sick...ewww...how gross!) We never told her about that until we were grown-otherwise she would have stood there while we drank them. It was pure survival (anyone who's ever had to endure Mommy Hot Toddies while ill knows exactly what I'm talking about!)
Back to the studio...all this moving is getting old though and I'm hoping it feels right when I get it together. I don't really have any knowledge of fung shui...it would be great if I could pull the room together to make my business successful and prosperous...and to make it so everyone who doesn't understand the stay-at-home working/homeschooling Mom-would. Is there such a room placement magic? I am having the hardest time with people dropping by for hours and then griping if I don't sit and visit with them (?)!! I guess a sincere heart-to-heart is in order. I have made a lifestyle of helping others with their problems and being that shoulder for everyone, that they just keep coming. If I had a degree in counseling, and an "800" number/hotline for phone advice I'd be rich by now. I have a soft heart for people with plights and try my best to give them advice...not that they take it...which makes for terrible wastes of my time! I am totally needing to give myself advice and tell it straight to myself like I tell them-do what you need to do to get yourself on that road to inner peace. Inner peace for me would be just one day without any interruptions at all and actually finishing one thing I start without having to put it down to answer the door or the phone or any Mom or Glenda question. My days are totally bogged and it's sapping my much needed creativity. No one takes me seriously because I guess I don't. I should put a pretty, decorative sign on my door that says, "Leave Me Alone Today!!" I think they'd come in anyway-really. I know part of me wants everyone's world to be OK because I grew up with no control over my own world and always strived for perfect-which cannot ever be-and is impossible to obtain. Still, I'm always trying to help everyone and then accomplish nothing for myself or my own family...and it's funny, but when I get overwhelmed by this, none of the people I "help" are around to help me! How sick!! They would actually be helping me if they just didn't and went away for awhile...don't I sound mean? I'm feeling very much like a combination between Oscar the Grouch and Eeyore right now!
How did I get here? I was talking about my studio and then BANG...went there!
So...I am hoping to get brave and honest with these people and just say..."Please do me a favor for once and let it be about me...I need too..." How desperate sounding! I wonder what they would do? Maybe step up and get a life of their own and not suck the life out of me!
I did it again!
The photo above is one my sister Angie took this afternoon from her front porch. It looks toward the next town over and across the road and fields at the recent storm that raged across the midwest. When we left there Monday it was in the 60's! I guess we got out of there in the nick of time! Still it would have been nice to be stuck there with my family for another week!
I need some Tigger juice...right away!! Anyone got any?
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